Guess it just happens that way

I don't know how long after losing a parent you still cry. There probably is not any 'normal' time frame and everyone is proably different. Today was a day I just cried, I don't really know why for sure. Proably many things contributed to it, it has almost been a month since her passing for one. Other things too, but I won't bore you with the details on here. I don't think mom would want me to be so sad, but I guess I still need time. On top of it all, out little boy was diagnosed with the flu Monday and that H1N1 is going around here bad. I started feeling bad myself and we have been stuck at home all week. That can not help things with my mind, being stuck inside. But who wants to get out and expose others to what we have. I don't feel like it and don't want to and I know our little boy does not want to get out. The day we were at the doctor he just begged to go home. My poor little baby boy, well he is not a baby anymore. But that just broke my heart to see him feeling so bad. Thank God he is feeling better everyday and thank you to everyone for the prayers.

Riding the fence....

Today I looked outside and one of our chickens had flown out of the chicken yard earlier. I don't know why but there a couple that do that, guess they like chasing bugs just that much. But as I looked out the window in the backyard, the chicken had decided to fly up to try to get back in the chicken yard. Now I tried to go get my camera but did not make it in time. The chicken sat there on that fence top and then decided to fly down.

Are we sometimes like this chicken? Riding the fence? Chosing to do our own thing vs. doing what God wants us to do?

Now don't get me wrong, I am not perfect. I am far from it, God loves me even inspite of my imperfections. I saw a church sign that said God hates the sin but loves the sinner. We all sin, we all fall short of the glory of God. But we must stive to do better and have a better relationship with God. For our own sake's, the sake's of our family and the sake's of others. And what I mean by that, is that if other's see us as Christ like by the way we live and speak. Maybe we can help lead other's to Christ by planting that seed...

Speak Lord in the stillness...

Thought I would share this poem I read....

Speak, Lord, in the stillness,

While I wait on thee; Hushed my heart to listen

In expectancy.

Speak, O blessed Master, In this quiet hour;

Let me see Thy face, Lord,

Feel They touch of power.

For the words Thou speakest,

"They are life" indeed;

Living Bread from heaven,

Now my spirit feed!

All to Thee is yielded, I am not my own;

Blissful, glad surrender,

I am Thine alone.

Speak, Thy servant heareth!

Be not silent, Lord;

Waits my soul upon Thee

For the quickening word!

Fill me with the knowledge

Of Thy glorious will;

All Thine own good pleasure

In my life fulfill.

Like 'a watered garden'

Full of fragrance rare

Ling'ring in Thy presence

Let my life appear.

-----Emily May Grimes Crawford